LOVE: NOT LIKE THE MOVIES AND OTHER REVELATIONS

Hello, world! It's NocturnELLE once again! Can't really sleep, thought I would post some interesting thoughts on my mind, posting a little "earlier" than usual. Lol


Have you ever wanted to run out of your own life? Have you ever felt like people can see right through your facade, and that you can never be sure if they genuinely care about you, or you think you're not worth anything. Pet cloning has managed to be perfected, why can't time travel? What would you change if you could go back in time, or what would you want to see? I'd definitely want to see all my favorite musicians in the 60's-80's: THE BEATLES. THE DOORS. THE ROLLING STONES. THE WHO. THE ANIMALS. JIMI HENDRIX. JANIS JOPLIN. THE SEX PISTOLS. MOTLEY CRUE. POISON. This is all so hard for me. With everything currently going on in my life, I'm unable to think and act rationally. I want something new, I am so over some of the things and people in my life to the point where I want nothing to do with them. I feel so forgotten sometimes..

Look at all of the movies over the past century and generation that influenced the ideas of love. Gone With The Wind. Casablanca. When Harry Met Sally. Titanic. The Notebook. ANY DISNEY PRINCESS MOVIE! It's rather unfortunate, that there really are not any Rhett Butlers or Rick Blaines or even any Jack Dawsons or Noah Calhouns or Stefan Salvatores. We need to find our own leading man, our own Disney Prince, our happily ever after. Females wish they could find men that were these romantic heroines, but that's about as likely as finding an authentic pair of Christian Louboutins in the Garment District sold in the same truck as knock off Louis Vuitton and Gucci purses. Our knights may not be clad in shining armor, but their outer couture is insignificant if their inner heart is pure and loving. 

YEP. THIS IS REALLY WHAT A GIRL WANTS :D

Ilsa Lund (Ingrid Bergman) and Rick Blaine (Humphrey Bogart) in Casablanca (1942), the NUMBER ONE MOVIE ON AFI'S 100 YEARS...100 PASSIONS

Rhett Butler (Clark Gable) and Scarlett O'Hara (Vivienne Leigh) in Gone With The Wind (1939) the NUMBER TWO MOVIE ON AFI'S 100 YEARS...100 PASSIONS

Jack Dawson (Leonardo DiCaprio) and Rose DeWitt Bukater/Dawson (Kate Winslet) in Titanic (1997), the NUMBER THIRTY SEVENTH MOVIE ON AFI'S 100 YEARS, 100 PASSIONS

Noah Calhoun (Ryan Gosling) and Allie Hamilton (Rachel McAdams) in The Notebook (2004)

V-J DAY IN TIMES SQUARE

PHOTOGRAPHED BY ALFRED EISENSTAEDT

ONE OF THE MOST ICONIC KISSES OF ALL TIME

Bill Compton (Stephen Moyer) and Sookie Stackhouse (Anna Paquin) on True Blood. Fun Fact: Anna and Stephen celebrated their one year wedding anniversary a couple of weeks ago! Talk about TRUE LOVE! 

AND THE NUMBER ONE KISS AWARD GOES TO...

ELENA GILBERT(NINA DOBREV) AND STEFAN SALVATORE (PAUL WESLEY) OF THE VAMPIRE DIARIES! WE ALL WISH WE HAD A PASSIONATE VAMPIRE LOVE LIKE STEFAN, AND ELENA IS THE ONE THAT GIRLS ACROSS THE GLOBE ENVY FOR HAVING JUST THAT :D

I seem to have acquired what is called "Scarlett O'Hara Syndrome". Scarlett O'Hara Syndrome is when men fall in love with you, but DO NOT want to be your boyfriend or marry you. I also have "Good Luck Chuck Syndrome", where 8 out of 10 guys that either only want to be just friends or friends with benefits or just aren't into commitment, the next girl they meet becomes their serious girlfriend. When will I find my next love? :( When I least expect it, right? How come it doesn't seem that way for others?


Speaking of love. I know it's been a while since I've mentioned him, but I still kind of miss T so much. I begged and begged him NOT TO LEAVE. We both kind of knew that he had to though, but why did he have to get back together with that fugly malicious immature conniving mother hippo? I HOPE SHE'S GETTING THE LAST LAUGH. I hate how I KNOW that I'm a strong person and how I'm not showing it because this is hitting me so hard. I hate how he deleted me and although he sent me a message that we are still friends, that horrible woman messaged me!!!! YES. MY EX BOYFRIEND'S EX/NOW CURRENT GIRLFRIEND MESSAGED ME ON FACEBOOK. MAN, SHE REALLY WISHES SHE WAS YOUNGER. Basically, she went on a rant how there is no "keeping it between us" between Tyler and I and that he loves her very much and has for years now. I told her that I hoped this time around lasted much longer and that his head wasn't turned by another young girl and how she should open up her purse every once in a while to air out Tylers balls. She said my jealousy will eat me up in the end and that my words towards her solidify that I'm not his true friend... He wasn't my true friend first when he deleted me AND LET THAT HORRIBLE WOMAN MESSAGE ME!!!!!!!!!I I NEVER REPLIED TO HER AFTER THAT, AND I THINK THEY BOTH BLOCKED ME. I DON'T CARE, BECAUSE NOW I CAN FULLY MOVE ON! THEY BELONG TOGETHER, AND HE'LL COME CRAWLING BACK BUT I DON'T WANT HIM ANYMORE!!!!


Our perfections are rooted from our flaws and mistakes.How do we acknowledge and improve on these imperfections and mistakes? We grow, we change. We tell ourselves that there is hope for a new tomorrow and aspire to achieve personal greatness in our everyday lives. You can't please everybody all of the time, but you can please some people some of the time. We let the sunshine's rays bursting through our windows each morning be that messenger of  new beginnings, a new day. When I went on the Senior Life Skills Retreat almost 3 years ago in high school, we learned this song that says "Put a smile on your face and the world's a happy place." It's so true, because a purely genuine smile can have such an impact. See? :) Hehehe 


On a slightly less intellectual note, I think we all have a little bit of "The Dude" Within us ;) When I say "The Dude", I am in fact referring to "The Big Lebowski. Hahaha. Everybody gets a little lost on the the road to perseverance, and to find the light at the end o the tunnel. There is no such thing as a GPS Navigatior for your life and although we do heed the tales of other's journeys, we all take a different route, and sometimes it takes us a longer time or a shorter time to get there. In other words, I've just checked in to see what condition my condition was in. ;)

 The Big Lebowski

I think I'll watch a movie. Here's a playlist to finish off with. I'd like to dedicate "F**K YOU/FORGET YOU" by CEE LO GREEN and "YOU OUGHTA KNOW" by ALANIS MORRISETTE to Taylor and his mother hippo. KISS MY A-S-S!!!!!!!! Lol :P. Good Night, Moon. Good Night World. Until I blog again...


Elana Jade Rebel <3

                                                           F**K YOU BY CEE LO GREEN

                                         YOU OUGHTA KNOW BY ALANIS MORRISETTE                                         







Songs of the day 
"Sorry" Buckcherry
"When The Heartache Ends" Rob Thomas
"So Yesterday" Hilary Duff
"You Oughta Know" Alanis Morrisette 
"Problem Girl" Rob Thomas
"I'm Gonna Getcha Good" Shania Twain
"It's All Coming Back To Me Now" Celine Dion
"Goodbye Yellow Brick Road" Elton John
"Her Diamonds" Rob Thomas
"Breathe" Michelle Branch
"Stupid Girl" Garbage
"Bitch" Meredith Brooks
"Crazy Bitch" Buckcherry
"Everything" Buckcherry
"Open My Eyes" Buckcherry
"Sleeping Angel" Stevie Nicks
"You Can't Always Get What You Want" The Rolling Stones
"Gimme Shelter" The Rolling Stones
"Emotional Rescue" The Rolling Stones
"Ruby Tuesday" The Rolling Stones
"No Scrubs" TLC
"Last Beautiful Girl" Matchbox Twenty
"You Won't Be Mine" Matchbox Twenty
"Not Like The Movies" Katy Perry

"Part Of Me" Katy Perry

"What Doesn't Kill You (Makes You Stronger)" Kelly Clarkson

"Someone Like You" ADELE

"Set Fire To The Rain" ADELE

"Rolling In The Deep" ADELE

"Grenade" Bruno Mars

Mauled by my cousin's dog, yet my family could care less

Hello, world!!!! It's NocturnELLE once again. I'm writing this post after being awakened from a sound sleep by a bunch of clattering and other noises, most likely done by my uncle. Me, my mom, and my puppy Jagger are no longer at our house. It's been almost a month and it STILL doesn't feel like we're not coming back, it just feels like we're only staying somewhere else temporarily because we are getting our house remodeled or something. It's been a long time since I've  blogged and  A LOT has happened. 

On August 10th, I was attacked by my cousin's Jack Russell/Pitbull Mix, Kawi. Kawi is a very sweet dog, but is also a schizo dog as well. She is a rescue dog, which heavily contributes to her psychosis. I was upset and crying, and so I tried to walk outside when she started barking and biting me. For some reason, I couldn't get her off of me, and when I finally did, I ran out into my grandma's garage. I pulled up my pant leg and saw a huge CHUNK out of my leg. My mom started freaking out and rushed me to the ER. I was trying to stay calm, but was over-dramatic by saying I'd never be able to act again and what if my leg had to be amputated? THANK GOD IT WASN'T! Turns out she bit me in 3-4 spots on my leg and foot. I had to get 6 stitches in my leg, they couldn't close my foot at all or my leg up all the way because of infection risk, she bit my leg all the way to the muscle! I was lucky that they had me in and out of the ER. Due to the wound not being able to be fully stitched up, I'm gonna have to require plastic reconstructive surgery. It didn't help that my grandma wanted us to leave when we got back. My cousin, (the dog's owner that lives at my grandma's house) wasn't even here when I was attacked, she was at the gym. She sounded annoyed and didn't even ask if I was ok when my mom called her back on the way home. I told her I'm glad I didn't ruin her evening. She came and took Kawi before I got back from the hospital. I hate to say that this is NOT the first time the dog has bitten me. This is just the only time it was this bad. It was mandatory to fill out the papers for Animal Control since it was an animal attack, and they are being sent to CDC. Center for Disease Control, Good thing that Kawi has all her shots. I had to get a tetna shot before I got my stitched, ironically I just asked my mom if I needed one the night before. 


If my dog did that (which he never would), I'd be f**king hyperventilating and practically waiting hand and foot on that person. Jagger was trying to protect me from Kawi by pulling her off with his paws and forelegs.  Btw, there was a really cute nurse in the ER. ;] He was trying to pull her off of me with his paws. He was afraid of my crutches, which made me sad he won't come over because he was scared or something. I'm worried about his foot. He stepped on a fox tail a few weeks ago and now he has to wear a Winnie the Pooh baby sock.  Bree FINALLY texted me later that night when I got back. She said "How's the leg? Send me a pic" Here's a pic of Kawi's handiwork. That's before the stitches. It's mostly numb. Thanks for asking. O shit. K well I'm going to bed. Ill see you in the morning. Night. Love you... Yes, that made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside... I'm being a sarcastic ass. Is it me or it almost seems like she could care less? Like "I saw it, time to sleep!" I felt like Cirque Du Soelil doing this balancing act I had to do to get from Point A to Point B, mostly hopping around or on the crutches. 


I was so freaked out that even now I can still feel Kawi's teeth sinking into my skin. It was like when you take that first bit of a huge, juicy, succulent hamburger. It makes me cry to think about it. The dog, not the burger. I mean, I now have to get plastic surgery because of this little dog, and Brianna could care less. I mean this all happened because I was just trying to get some air because I was kind of cranky and whining. Again, Kawi is a Jack Russell terrier/pitbull mix, like Eddie on Frasier or My Dog Skip. Little Fun Fact: Both the dogs from Frasier and My Dog Skip are related. She really is a sweet dog, but she's a rescue dog, which means that she was abused, because she was. It also doesn't help that her teeth are rotting out of her head! She's a liability and Bree's responsibility. It would be the same as if it was her child, or GOD FORBID the tables were turned and my Jagger did that, it would be MY responsibility. My dad sounded really frightened and angry at the dog, but he was very proud of me how brave I was when I was bleeding and then got my stitches. Dad didn't care enough, because he whisked his new wife on a week long vacation to Belize a few days later. 


The morning after, Bree came home, tried to tell me I'll only have a scar instead of surgery, then she said "Thats retarded" when my mom told her that I definitely have to have surgery. She left and went to Starbucks, didn't even ask if we wanted anything.  Oh! I forgot that she told me to take the stitches out myself to save money. WTF?!? Even Grandma says that Bree is apathetic. Later on, since it is mandatory when a dog bites somebody from Animal Control stops by, the dog had to be quarantined for a week. My cousin and grandma managed to convince the officer that it was MY fault and there was a risk of the dog getting sick from biting ME. The quarantine guy already said it was my fault. 


I wrote to Bree's ex about it, because they share joint custody.Everybody in my family was being so mean to me and were more concerned over the dog than MY WELL BEING.  Bree could REALLY careless. Grandma told her to be more sympathetic. Even my attorney was more freaked out than Bree. My Aunt Kathy was nauseous from it and was calling every 5 minutes while we were in the ER. Then, Bree was writing on FB about how poor Kawi and telling everybody my mom and I were yelling and fighting and that Kawi went after me and when our hair stylist Becca asked if I was alright and another friend said it was a natural reaction for a pitbull to protect the pack, she replied with "Yeah she will be fine... Kawi got her pretty good tho... Pic are on her FB... Yep she is a protector." I put pix on my facebook, including of the dog, and Bree replied with "Aww my baby is so cute." Just to piss me off. We finally got into, when I gave her an ultimatum: To either replace the BRAND NEW pair of pants that I just got a day or 2 before the incident that were now ruined by the dog, to pay for the hospital bill, or to pay for the surgery, which I wouldn't even ask her to do. She kept insulting me and telling me to suck it up and telling me I'm spoiled and to go cry to my daddy. It really pissed me off, so my mom and I had to stay at a Motel 6. I was freaking miserable, until I got the stitches out last week. When my mom asked about the reconstructive surgery, the nurse said "That's the risk you take when you get a dog bite." WTF IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!? IT'S NOT LIKE I ASKED FOR IT! AND NOW WITH THE LAWSUIT RESULTING THE WAY IT DID, WHO THE HELL KNOWS WHEN I'LL BE ABLE TO GET THE DAMN SURGERY. HERE'S A PICTURE DIARY OF MY INJURIES, LEAVE FEEDBACK. UNTIL I BLOG AGAIN, 
ELANA JADE REBEL <3

On my way to the hospital after being attacked 08.10.2011

After the hospital 08.10.2011

08.11.2011.

08.11.2011

08.11.2011

My attacker, aka KAWI. 08.11.2011

How I had to shower (and yes, that's Dinner For Shmucks in the background :P) 08.12.2011

08.13.2011.

1 Week Later 08.17.2011

08.17.2011.

08.18.2011.

08.18.2011.

08.18.2011

Going to get the stitches out! 08.19.2011

08.19.2011

The day after I got the stitches out 08.20.2011

8 Days after I got my stitches out 08.27.2011

Almost Deer Attack, Bong Water, and Katy Perry

Hello, world! It's NocturnELLE, live from my Pepto-Bismol Pink Box Formerly Known as MY ROOM. I had some great times in this room. I'll always remember the color. Pepto Bismol Pink. Hahaha I hope wherever I go now, that I get a nice room. Yesterday (makes me think of The Beatles song, which I LOVE and have been playing a lot lately) was a somewhat eventful day, and with that, let the story begin...




I was outside the grocery store putting my book and make up bag away, and my mom is waiting for me with Jagger near the end so we can go for our walk around the outlet complex where the store is. All of sudden, she's like "Omg Elana what is that behind you? Is that a deer? Hurry, go look." so I see the back of it and go to follow it, the freaking thing comes charging at me nahhing. I shrieked and fell back on the ground and it almost crashed into Jagger, my baby puppy. The poor thing was sweating and it was running so fast it slipped when it saw me. It made me sad, I really REALLY hope it didn't get run over. Thank goodness it didn't bite us! Following that, a German Shepard tried to bite my hand off. It really WAS NOT my day. Things took a lighter turn when I bought a Red Velvet cupcake from Sweet Arlene's. 2 Time Cupcake War Challenge winner. Boy, was it yummy! Haha! My mom says she's lucky she got 2 bites in. I am really serious about her and I starting up our gourmet dessert catering company once  we FINALLY get our money back and our lives are restored! My mom had one a long time ago, but now I want to do it with her :).

HERE IS THE PERFECT EXAMPLE OF HOW LOOKS CAN BE COMPLETELY DECEIVING! 

CUTE CUDDLY DEER

DEER ON RAMPAGE!!!!

CUTE ADORABLE GERMAN SHEPERD PUPPIES!

                                                                  

WHEN GERMAN SHEPERDS ATTACK!!!!

  Last week, I ordered both the DVD and book copies of Bong Water by Michael Hornburg, but I hadn't started reading them when I had been greatly anticipating their arrival. I am a ravenous reader, I become lost in the world of the words on the pages.  Even my mom was surprised, she said she thought I'd be done with it by now. I FINALLY started reading yesterday, it's fantastic and so eloquently written!!! It's about this pot dealer and aspiring filmmaker (artist in the film) named David and his friends. They're post college grads, young 20's. The chapters alternate from being told in first person by David in Portland, Oregon. and being told in third person by his ex-roommate Courtney (Serena in the film) in New York. I am a little bummed, because it's a short read. I'm into long books. Hahaha :P. I'ts 189 pages, I actually stopped at 100. Probably because I had to finish packing. Anyways, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE GET THIS BOOK, PEOPLE!!! It was INSANELY cheap on Amazon.com. The movie is good, too. Luke Wilson plays David :D hehehe. This book really takes you inside the mind of somebody trying to figure out life and somebody trying to make an escape. It had a FABULOUS introductory quote that is so true: "Gotta get out of here, can't stick around, gotta get a ticket out of loser's town." The Wipers                                                                    

The Original 1995 Book Cover

Revised Book Cover

DVD Cover (Doesn't Luke look cutie? Hehehe)

I'd like to close with this darling picture. I'm SO excited to see Katy Perry and Buckcherry in concert next month! Here's a picture of Katy Perry at the 07.24.2011 premiere of her first movie "The Smurfs", in which she provides the voice of Smurfette. This entire ensemble was FREAKING AWESOME! SHE TOTALLY PULLED IT OFF. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE HER AND AM SO EXCITED TO GO TO THE CONCERT! OFFICIALLY OBSESSED WITH "FIREWORK"!!!!!!

Katy Perry at "The Smurfs" premiere. She rocks the blue carpet with a sequined Smurfette dress by The Blonds and rich blue Christian Louboutin pumps. With newly blonde hair, Katy keeps her make up simple yet glamorous with bright blue eye make up and rich pink lip shade.

Until I blog again, ciao! Good Night Moon, Good Night World!

<3 Elana Jade Rebel

Do You Believe in Life After Love?

Hello, world! Hope everybody is doing well. Remember my last post? Forget it! Well, the show is over, it's time to move on. That's all I have to say." In life, when something happens or ends, remember this: Take the good, bury the bad, and learn from the rest." It's the circle of life. We met people, fall in love (or so we think sometimes), and either we get married (some lead to divorce, others are everlasting) or break up. There's no such thing as a polite break up, just like there's no such thing as a polite lawsuit. We all have different reactions, some of those can be delayed. Crying, screaming, self-inflicting harm, binge eating, losing your mind, isolating yourself from the world or putting out as your only distraction. Some can turn into stalkers or just commit suicide. The aftermath can be nasty with the person you're no longer dating, but sometimes being friends can or can't work. I guess I'm indifferent. The point is, when you feel like you're at your lowest low without even the possibility of gravity being able to excavate you, it can be difficult to remember that you ARE NOT alone and that THERE ARE people in your life that ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT YOU AND LOVE YOU AND WORRY ABOUT YOU, HOW IT UPSETS THEM TO SEE YOU SAD. In the words of one of my idols, Cher, "Do you believe in life after love?" It may be hard to see it now, but there is. There are new adventures to embark on and new people to meet. Remember to take care of and believe in yourselves. I posted the video below as a reminder to all of you, plus some other fantastic songs <3. Until I write again, ciao and good morning, world! <3 Elana Jade Rebel

"My Heart Will Go On" Celine Dion
"There You'll Be" Faith Hill
"Cry" (Faith Hill)
"Cry" (Mandy Moore)
"I Don't Want To Miss A Thing" Aerosmith
"It Must've Been Love" by Roxette
"Take My Breath Away" Berlin
"Have I Told You Lately That I Love You" Van Morrison
"In Too Deep" Genesis
"Misunderstanding" Genesis
"In Your Eyes" Peter Gabriel

Delayed Heartbreak and My Latest Obsession...

Hello, world!!!! Hope everybody is doing well! I, unfortunately am not. I'm afraid I've become ill from a delayed reaction of breaking up with my boyfriend almost 3 months ago. We still love each other very much, but now he told me he's sort of seeing someone, and he's taking it slow to see where it goes. I became infuriated and upset, and for the past six days now I have been an absolute wreck! Hardly eating or sleeping, not being able to sleep until the early hours of the morning (between 6-9), crying, screaming, arguing with my mom, and perseverating. He is my first love and my first adult relationship.  He even he called himself somewhat of a loser. He told me he knew that my mom and Dillon and everybody were telling me that he wasn't the right one, and he told me he knew I could be with somebody so much better than him. He kept saying that we met when we were both at a point when we needed somebody in our lives. He told me I inspired him and changed him and how he wanted to be a better man for me, and how I was always there for him no matter what. The last time I saw him when we said good bye, he was crying. Not bawling, but I saw him tear up on the way back to my house and again once we got there. 

We finally had a heart to heart on Friday (Friday for me, Saturday for him). Basically it was me telling him how much he means to me and how much I love him and him telling me he loves me as a friend now, he told me he thought it wouldn't be fair to me if I carried on something long distance when he couldn't be here. He started consoling me because he knows I'm going through a hard time with so much going on, and before I left I told him he would always have a place in my heart and my life even if I'm not in his. I also said I'd rather have his friendship than his hatred and he asked why would he hate me and I said "It's because I love you so much." I asked him if he planned on permanently staying there and he said the only way he'd be able to stay in Australia was if he married a girl that lived there, and he doesn't plan on getting married until he's in his 30's. So that means that he's definitely coming back. Except earlier when I asked him if he meant we were gonna be just friend's for now or for forever and he told me who knows about forever. Although, he said that that girl wasn't his girlfriend :D ;). Hahaha

On the other hand, my new obsession: Luke Wilson! MEOW!

Hahaha he's been the flavor of the season ever since Taylor left. I never realized it how much Taylor looks like him. Kind of in Old School and when he has the shorter hair. Sooooo sexy, hot, gorgeous, I'm drooling just typing this sentence! Besides his looks, Luke is a really great actor. He's SO underrated. His performance in The Royal Tenenbaums was stellar, I love it!!! It's a really wonderful movie. It wasn't until Bongwater where I REALLY lost it. Luke's character was just like Taylor! The way he dressed and was a pothead and an artist and his body movements. The ironic thing is, Taylor has actually met Luke Wilson. Lol. I shouldn't be watching his movies because of how they remind me of T, but again, he's the flavor of the month! HOT DAMN! He definitely is somebody that can give me a cartoon reaction. You know when you stop dead in your tracks and your jaw drops and your eyes bulge out of your head and you make a combination of different sounds: There's the fog horn, the whistle and then the car horn. You know "Aougha-Aougha-Aougha" or "Hubbita Hubbita Hubbita WOW!" :P  Lol I'm writing a new screenplay, it has a very Wes Anderson feel to it. I'm excited to continue it, it's become very theraputic. Well, I'm feeling tired, I just got done working out for an hour and a half. I'm going to go to sleep (I hope I'll actually be able to fall asleep). Before I go, here's some pic of Luke and the cartoon reaction, but which guy do I look better with? My ex-boyfriend Taylor or Luke Wilson? :P Let me know. Good night moon, good night world! Ciao, until I write again <3

Elana Jade Rebel

                                                          Here's the cartoon reaction :P

I found this picture when I was looking for the above picture, and I just thought it was utterly adorable!!!! <3

LUKE WILSON <3

Who's the better pick for me and who do I look the best with?

                                                       A. My ex-boyfriend Taylor

OR...

B. Luke Wilson (I think he likes what he's looking at. Hahaha! Jkjk :P)

LET ME KNOW!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3